Impossiblistic

I still have that heart you gave me.

You remember, the heart that you transmogrified

into a thousand jigsaw pieces;

The pieces that apparently could not fit your conception of love;

The pieces that you threw around

as if you were testing the limits of my sorrow;

The pieces that became more pieces and more pieces

and more pieces by your machete-like words.

I call you the butcher!

For hacking into my stitched heart

and scooping out its insides like a pumpkin on Halloween.

Except unlike on Halloween,

There was no candle lit within it—only atrous emptiness;

There was no carved smile that simulated blissful sentiments—

only facelessness;

And,

There was no pumpkin—only remnants.

—-

I still have that heart you gave me.

You remember,

The heart that you transmogrified

into a thousand jigsaw pieces.

I want to hold you.

—

I want to hold the planets

in the beating universe

within your chest.

And breath new life into them—a new home.

—-

I want to to make them rotate as elegeant as you walk.

I want to push them into orbit

and rouse a revolution upon your heart.

—-

I want to gaze at your beauty

and watch the sun blaze

within your eyes.

I want to touch you

and form constellations on your skin

with my fingertips

—-

I want to save you from the comets that follow you,

from black holes that swallow you.

And when all is done,

I want to pick the remains of your supernova blast

and reconstruct you with my own beating universe.

In my mind

I cannot find

The reasons to depart,

So I dwell with might

My self-made plight:

The phobia in my heart.

I saw your necklace.

Its rope-texture on your neck.

Goodbye forever.

Oh how beautiful!

The calm face, gentle eyes—of

Her pale, dead body.

There on midnight moon,

I saw the ashes fly past—

The ashes of you.

On days of darkness

You’re light shines away the black

Within this cold corpse.

I know that in the end

we will find one another.

And when I find you…

…we’ll lie together;

I’ll place my hand on your heart

and rip it—apart.